How's my dating going? Not great. Have I been on a date yet? Nope. Do I like a couple of guys from the dating website? Just the one. Do I think he wants to meet me? No chance.
I say I haven't been on a date yet but I have met up with someone. We started speaking to each other and a couple of hours later, he was round at mine. Not in that way you dirty minx... he came to kill a spider. I'm petrified of them and there was one cosied up in the corner of my bedroom. He travelled 30 minutes to kill it for me and we spent a couple of hours getting to know each other. I thought he was lovely - the feeling obviously wasn't mutual. He doesn't speak to me any more. Nice. Way to boost my confidence.
As for the guy I like... well, he lives quite the distance from me. 2 hours. I don't think it's bad - he's hot, nice and sarcastic - Sarcasm makes me go weak at the knees - but I don't think he feels the same. He claims that he likes me but he says the distance is an issue. He's said a couple of times that we should stop speaking... still texting to this day. It's confusing and I'm starting to want to give up. But you know when a guy has a hold on you? Yup, that. And I can't let go.
I'm starting to wonder if dating is for me. This website is getting me down. No dates but lots of empty compliments that mean nothing to me. I've had offers for dates but I can't accept them. I don't want to go on a date with just someone. I want to like him beforehand a bit. Maybe that's my issue, maybe I don't give guys a chance because I'm scared of them falling for me. Or ending up ignoring me like spiderman. I'm contemplating forgetting my relationship mission. I just want hot, steamy sex with a beautiful guy right now. Maybe that's more my cup of tea. Who knows? Freshers week soon. Could be the week...
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